"i will lift up my eyes to the mountains; from where does my help come? my help comes from the Lord, who made heaven and earth." psalm 121:1-2
today my mom forwarded me an email reminding me of this- one of my favorite psalms in the bible. i read it to n tonight before bed and we know it is true because jesus is true and helping us beyond what i can explain.
things have been very difficult this month. nathanael fractured his sternum about 3 weeks ago and we've been running on the survival treadmill ever since. he has osteoperosis so this was done merely getting off the toilet (since you're probably wondering). his dad flew out a couple days after it happened and has been here much longer than he'd planned during his busiest season of the year. n hasn't been able to lay down or get up without assistance. those first days hils taught me the trick of pulling and laying down someone by stabilizing them in a sheet. this she learned from her days at the convalescent hospital. i don't know what i'd have done if johnny and hilary weren't here. johnny has been a hero to us and has taught me much on every level of caring for a person. it hasn't been easy at all. there's been so much heartbreak and physical exhaustion-- i've had a nervous breakdown and cried a lot, but each day we all get up and find that God's grace truly is sufficient for us. i've had to take quite a few days off work and my back has been bothering me a lot (i have a degenerating disk in my low back that i have to be careful of) so johnny has had to take over all of the lifting and shifting of n. we are both up a lot at night to help him go to the bathroom. my mom is coming tomorrow to stay with us for a week and we can't wait to see our franco. i'm also taking a week off since my students are on spring break. God's timing is good. johnny will go back to loads of work and rescheduled appointments. i told franco to put on her nursing cap and bring her weightlifting brace. she said she's ready so i know God is already filling her with the strength she will need.
this is about all i can handle explaining for now. it's been VERY intense and exhausting and i've only told you half of it. all i can say is that i feel the nearness of God and a peace which surpasses comprehension all about us. thank you for your love and prayers.
4 comments:
Love and prayers. I worry about typing the wrong thing. Hang in there (I can think of reasons why THAT might be the wrong thing). More love, more prayers. You all are such an inspiration.
love and hugs!!
You continue to amaze me Rox. I love your realness and your complete dependency. Thanks for sharing this because then we get to be part of the miracle. Lovings to you!
roxie, you're strength is amazing. i'm so happy you have such a wonderful support structure, know that all of our thoughts are with you and n. here in california.
much love xoxo
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